Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I am woman, hear me snore.....

and snore, and snore........

Ah yes, the fatigue. I know I have said it before, but the fatigue for me is the hardest part to get used to with this disease.

I went from Go Go Gadget - always on the run, to Mr. McGoo...

What I have come to realize and to accept is that you just can’t do it all anymore. And, when it all boils down to it, that's okay.

I have incorporated what I call "The Neapolitan Concept" into my life. I now see my life in three layers, like Neapolitan ice cream.
 If I do something in the morning (strawberry) and have plans in the evening (chocolate), I need to rest in the middle of my day (Vanilla).

If I have a busy afternoon and have plans to meet friends for dinner, I know that I must rest in the morning. It works for me. But, it took a while for me to figure it out and even longer to accept it.

I think I used to fight it. I used to try to do everything the same and I would end up having Holiday Inn days.

What is a Holiday Inn day you ask.. well that’s what I call it when I awake so tired I want to cry and I just want to check into a Holiday Inn for a few days and hide from everyone and everything because I don’t have the energy to function.

I realized I just didn’t have the energy to sustain myself for the week if I pushed to hard. I used to train at the gym with a trainer.. which was great, but I would train hard! And then I would come home and be a mom, a wife, a cook, a housekeeper and the list went on.

By the end of the week I would be so tired and my muscles were so weak I wasn’t even able to hold up a hair dryer. Literally. During that time, there were periods I was so tired that I would sleep through my alarm and not even make it to the gym. I was tired - actually scratch that, I was burnt out. I only had so much gas in the tank and I need to find a better route to use it so I could make it through the week.

I ended up stopping my personal training and opting for a more gentle exercise routine, and Wala! I feel so much better. I realized that I really needed to take a good look at where I wanted (and needed) to spend my energy, and the answer was with my friends and family and not at the gym.

So I stopped the training and implemented my Neapolitan approach and so far so good. Don’t get me wrong, I do have Holiday Inn days. If I push myself too much one week or over do it- but they are fewer and farther in between.

So for now, I am proud to be woman - hear me snore.

Hope this finds you all well and well rested

Peace and Love ~


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