|Happy 1 Year Anniversary|
I can't believe it!
I missed my Sanniversary!
My Scleroderma Anniversary date.
I thought I would be a sap and ponder over all the life lessons I have learned and center myself to see where I am now, compared to when I was diagnosed - all that important "life event" cerebral emotionally stuff we do when important dates come.
But apparantly I am not as sentimental as I thought - not a sap - not as profound as I thought I was.
I really (no joke) thought that would be a really important and emotional day for me. But the thing is...I think I went to Sam's Club that day!?!
I guess this is a good thing. Perhaps I have accepted my new life more than I have realized. Which for me, is pretty huge....
I am not an accept-er of things without completely understanding them first. I have said this before, nursing school changed me into needing to analyze things until they make sense to me.
The irony here is...This disease makes NO SENSE at all! HA! The Big S does not play fair, there are no rules, it is always changing, always progressing causing a continuous series of readjustments and life changes.
Just when you thought it was safe to go back into the water - The Big S will pull a presto-chango and the sharks are back.....so I am really proud of myself for forgetting my anniversary date!
As you may have figured out by now, I am a pretty cerebral person and I like to consider myself deep (again - My opinion - I also consider myself good at scrabble, yet I can't spell, so?)
I digress, so I thought that this mile marker would mean a lot to me. And it still may hit me, just not today. And apparantly - not on the 13th either (Ba Da Bum...Ching!)
Well, what can I say. I just remembered. It's been a year since I got the news that changed/is changing my life forever.
I have "The Big S" - but the big S doesn't have me!
It has been a crazy wild ride this past year.....diagnosis, job loss, depression, denial, grieving, hope, acceptance, joy, weight gain, medication changes, major life decisions and now the start of fall again tomorrow.
Life is good.
Last year my holidays sucked really bad (See I got scrooged) but this is my year baby! Mama Griswold is back in action.....bring on the holidays! Tomorrow is the first day of fall, and after that the onslaught of holidays, carnivals, festivals and fun until the new year and I can't wait.
So, I guess I have really changed. I am happy! I am excited and can't wait for the new season to begin. Bring it on!
Well, that's all for now folks. I gotta wash that grey right outta my hair (Salon appt) and then off to the gym (see said weight gain above!)
Have a great Tuesday! Enjoy your day!