I have an MRI tomorrow for my ear. Yuk!
I hate MRIs - I am claustrophobic now (apparently) and once I get under the damn thing I have to itch, must move my arms, have a cramp, need to pee.... boy does my brain do a number on me.
I get that it is mind over matter and I am in control, but I think there is a Xanax with my name on it for tomorrow morning.
I even go to the open MRI and I am this bad. Seriously!
I had to get an MRI of the brain last year, so I went to the open MRI and found that it is open - but they strap your head to the table in this mask "Silence of the Lambs" style and it freaked me out.
I couldn't do it. The tech kept telling me how long it was going to be, could I sit still that long, I had to keep my head still and when I asked how long, she would not say, telling me it was better not to know so it would go faster............ and she was a tad gruff while saying it all, but I went to the table like a good girl and lay down. She told me to put the ear plugs in and put a cloth on my face, but I told her that those to additional confining elements would just make me feel worse. She didn't listen, as she told me she knew best - so I kept the plugs in and cloth on and wow.
I think I made it about maybe 7 minutes before I was dones-ville. The tech asked me if I wanted a "sitter" with me to hold my hand, and I said no. I asked how much longer and she replied she wasn't going to tell me and I could get through it to which I replied, I just think I need to be done for the day and come back with an anti-anxiety med on board. But she kept me there, and my flight or fight kept increasing - and she kept telling me I know you can do this and I would say, no I don't think I can.. and she said No, you will get through this and can do it and by that time I was in full blown panic mode and yelled back "What I know is I want to get the hell of this table so let me out now" to which she responded by not so nicely letting me out and off the table, where I had to then proceed and make the walk of shame out of the building. Memories.....
Well, I did go back and requested a different tech with xanax on board, I made sure my head was in a good place and I did it! I was so proud that the girls up front (who were witness to my previous walk of shame) actually gave me a standing ovation and hugs. Ahhh...yes. I know how to make friends and have a good time.
Well, I had to pick up contrast from the same imaging center last week for my CT scan, and I did not see any of the old crew that helped me through the MRI last time, so we will see. Wish me luck.
I am going to get a good nights sleep and pop my xanax around 7:00 for my 8:00 MRI.
Send me good, calming and relaxing vibes.
Mind over matter - Mind over matter - Mind over matter.
AS always, I will keep you posted.
MRI Machine Broken - Thank the heavens above. Was not ready for it......Ug.
Rescheduled to Monday the 15th at 12:30!!